When I grow up.. I wannabe a Dr.

in this harsh reality of life, it is nearly impossible not to care about what grades u get. having been slaving ourselves through med school for the past few years, certainly getting a first class honors is rewarding. but underneath all the good hopes & work laboured into achieving such level, the reality is a little too far within our grasp. and lets face it... good grades can be a plus. people with good grades get a lot of recognition. it boosts one’s self esteem to know that one is performing well. the better ur grades are, the better ur odds of securing a job and in the long run, traditionally it is supposed to open lots of doors for better career opportunities.

but what about the rest of us? what does it say about us if our grades are average at best, possibly worse? how are we going to get by without as many doors of opportunity open to us? are we snubbed just like that.. being punish for not performing as well as some of the high fliers of our peers? are we doomed to a life of mediocrity?

i don't know why i write about this. maybe because i'm a bit bitter of the fact that my grades now are no where close to what they used to be. or maybe this is a self comforting words that i use to remind myself, that there are more into working life than just getting good grades. i don't know. yesterday, as we're finishing our 3rd rotation (paediatrics), dr.C gave out a good few pointers on how she sees life after medical school. and what i'm attracted the most, is where she lashes out that for the majority of us, the mediocres that is... we don't really need to worry as it is our bunch that usually shines the most after med school. it could be a self compensatory thing that we do, to push ourselves ahead or maybe because we're trying to prove a point. that we could be a somebody. yes, surely ur grades are better than mine now. but does that mean that ur gonna work up the ladder faster than any of us!! maybe?... or maybe not.. =D

and again, as we are drawing closer to the end, personally for me, it would be interesting to see who among us will reach up the top the fastest 10-20 years down the line... position wise & also money wise. if based purely on my observations of which i could be bias about, i see some promising talent among my fellow peers. but of course anything could happen & i wouldn't want to write off anybody. so, it's a fair race. best of luck to us all.

-ilman aiman-

p/s: this has nothing to do with anybody. just a random thought. so please, don't get self conscious or be upset unnecessarily.